I Hate Walmart

I'm not talking I dislike going there, I'm talking I hate the company and the injustices they do to the Mom & Pop businesses. Any small business owner who is in "competition" with any product of service provided by Walmart is bound to suffer. I'm the child of small business owners. We ran the gauntlet with Walmart.

I feel for the families that will lose their businesses, homes, livelihood at the hands of this giant. These are families who can't put food on the table or clothing on children's backs without the income. It's sickening the lack of loyalty some patrons show. Just because a chain store needs a new manager is never a reason to quit a store. There are more people who benefit from your business than just the manager.

I'm a highly loyal person. I think when someone shows you a niceness, goodness, and/or offers a good product, then I think you should reciprocate with loyalty. You should also know if the product is better, as good as, or worse than what you are currently or could be consuming and if the overall cost is worth it. Reasons I say this, many people will spend less on a product that they will end up replacing more and paying more for than the premium product. NAPA is a great example of this. Sure I was raised by NAPA store owners and I worked in the stores. But when you have a long time customer come in who went to the "cheaper" place and say they bought 3 of a certain part in 6 months when that part should last 2-4 years then it gives me backing. Yadda, yadda, yadda, I could go on and on, but you get what you pay for.

I will take personalization and not being treated like a number any day over just being another credit card swipe. At my local grocery store, I know the names of my cashiers. The managers walk around all the time. We have BUTCHERS you can talk to who can SPECIALTY cut something for you, or special order something for you. I shop local. I buy local produce either at my grocer or from the farmers. My grocer labels locally grown produce. My grandma got jealous last year on Easter because I was making candied sweet potatoes and she couldn't find any. Locally grown, HIGHLY available. And they were dang good. Most people think it's progressive to buy local, organic, grassfed, to me it's just what I grew up doing.

I just ask again and again, inform yourself of what you are buying into and what you are putting on and in your body. I genuinely care for your health, even if I don't know you.

Peace & Love

What Do I Have To Do?

Sometimes, I have to wonder what is wrong with the world when a loyal, faithful, honest, and intelligent person can not be deserving of finding happiness in a loving relationship. I feel I'm deserving of happiness, companionship.

I have no clue what I'm doing when it comes to relationships. I have horrible luck with guys. I wasted the time where most people find the love of their life waiting for a guy to come around and figure out I'm who he wanted to be with. I wasted a third of my life on a dead end. Now I'm glad I ended it, and I definitely learned from it, but I am ready for the next phase in my life.

I'm a selfless person. I get more upset when someone wrongs my loved ones than when I'm wrong. Just tonight I was in tears because my mom and stepdad were upset and being wronged. And maybe because I'm not selfish, I don't stand up for myself enough or fight hard enough. I waste more time going back to my past and hoping I'll be able to fix things with guys I neglected or didn't fight for while I was waiting on the other guy. A picture was posted from Junior year Homecoming Pep Rally on Facebook and I'm wearing his football practice jersey. I also have blonde hair and want to Photoshop both out.

So tell me, what do I need to do to find a real man?

PS - When someone does something for you out of the good of their heart, don't be a brat and make expectations that they need to live up to, to make you even happier. If you are given or gifted something, then you need to appreciate what you are given and don't be a selfish bastard. That is all.

Peace & Love

We All Know What Assumptions Do...

...they make an ass out of 'u' and 'me'. And this happened to be last night. For 13 years I've thought one girl I went to high school with hated me. I finally got the courage to confront her, 10 years later. Well it turns out, not the case. I felt like a real a-hole. I lumped her in with a group where at least one person started a rumor about me and an ex who was dating another girl all through school. The other girl heard the rumor and hated that he and I were so close. She went to an entirely different school than we did.

I based all my thoughts on going to my 10-year reunion on the assumptions I made. It's crazy how many times this can actually happen in life. A person, or two persons can be shy enough to think there is an issue where there is none.

So after a long, long conversation, we hashed it out and made things right. 10 years too late, but better late than never.

The reason I've let this bother me is any friends I've made in the last few years, get me at my best. The people who knew me when I was 12-18 got to see me at my awkward time. Where I was growing into my body, I was a gangly 12 yr old at almost six feet tall. If you saw me at my worst, I take your opinion of me a little more to heart. I'm confident with who I am now. The people I know now can take it or leave it. I'm not a hard partying person. I don't need to go out partying all weekend like some of my new friends. I'm 28 years old. I'm past my party-hardy stage. But I do still enjoy the rock 'n roll part though.

Peace & Love my dears.